Sunday, July 31, 2011

Weekly Bible Reading [3]

Sundays Reading:
Matthew 14-17 + passages from sermon at church

Mondays Reading:
Matthew 18-23, Psalm 23 <3, Psalm 101-104

Tuesdays Reading:
Matthew 24-28, Psalm 105-106

Fave Verses:
Matthew 28:19-20 - Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of age.
Psalm 106:1 - Praise the LORD. Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.

Wednesdays Reading:
Psalm 107-108

Fave Verse:
Psalm 108:3-4 - I will praise you, LORD, among the nations; I will sing of you among the peoples. For great is your love, higher than the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies.

Thursdays Reading:
Luke 6-11, Psalm 109-114

Fave Verses:
Luke 6:27-28 - But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.
Luke 6:31 - Do to other as you would have them do to you.
Luke 6:37 - Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.
Psalm 111:3 - Glorious and majestic are his deeds, and his righteousness endures forever.
Psalm 112:4 - Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for those who are gracious and compassionate and righteous.
Psalm 113:2 - Let the name of the LORD be praised, both now and forevermore.

Fridays Reading:
Psalm 115-119

Fave Verses:
Psalm 118:14 - The LORD is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.
Psalm 118:28 - You are my God, and I will praise you; you are my God, and I will exalt you.
Psalm 118:29 - Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.
Psalm 119:10 - I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands
Psalm 119:28 - My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.
Psalm 119:67 - Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I obey your word.
Psalm 119:71 - It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees.
Psalm 119:88 - In your unfailing love preserve my life, that I may obey the statues of your mouth.
Psalm 119:89 - Your word, LORD, is eternal; it stands firm in the heavens.
Psalm 119:105 - Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.
Psalm 119:156 - Your compassion, LORD, is great; preserve my life according to your laws.

Saturdays Reading:
Psalm 120-124

Fave Verse: 
Psalm 124:8 - Our help is in the name of the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

My Absolute Favorite Shows

The Vampire Diaries!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I started watching the show because I had read the books but even though the show only somewhat follows the books I cant help but watch it. I'm addicted! I like the way the show is going though. Even though its not completely like the books I'm enjoying the different direction the show is going. :) Btw, I'm an Elena & Damon fan. I cant help it. Not to mention, Nina Dobrev and Ian Somerhalder are two of my favorite actors. :D


The Secret Life of the American Teenager!!!!!!! AHHH!!!!! I love this show! Its my favorite show right now. I didnt watch it from the beginning, I started watching around the time Adrian got pregnant. But after I watched it once I couldnt stop. I got addicted really quick. I love Amy and Ricky together. They are so cute, not to mention little John too. :). I am catching up on what I missed before I started watching though since ABC Family is showing The Secret Life from the beginning everyday. :). I also love Shailene Woodly and Daren Kagasoff as actors. They are my other two favorites.


Switched At Birth! I was watching The Secret Life when they started showing commercials for Switched At Birth. Just from the commercials I could tell this was a show I wanted to watch and its on right after The Secret Life so I dont even have to change the channel. :) Just the concept of the show pulled me in and since I started watching it I cant stop. I'm a big fan of Bay and Emmett. Just so everyone knows. :)


The Nine Lives of Chloe King! I also saw the commercials for this show when I was watching The Secret Life and they pulled me in. They seemed so interesting and they left me wanting more so I had to watch. I wasnt sure if I was going to like this show at first but I do. Its really good. :)


Hawaii Five-O! AHHH! One of my favorite shows to watch on CBS! I'm always a big fan of crime shows and the fact that this one has Alex O'Loughlin just makes it even better. I've been a fan of his since he was on Moonlight.


Teen Mom! I started watching 16 and Pregnant right from the beginning and when they made Teen Mom I watched that too. I always liked the moms from the first season better, especially Maci. I love watching the kids grow and seeing the struggles the moms go through. It really shows you how hard it is to be a teen mom and I think its good that this show is on to show that.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Weekly Music Discovery [3]

This weeks music discovery is based on songs I heard at a Night of Worship at my church on Friday. So all these songs are going to be christian songs. 

1. Starry Night by Chris August
Lyrics:
From the birds that sing
In the tallest trees
To the human life
Of you and me

From the desert sands
To the place we stand
He's God of all
He is everything

I'm giving my life to the only One
Who makes the moon reflect the sun
Every starry night
That was His design

I'm giving my life to the only Son
Who was and is and yet to come
Let the praises ring
'Cause He is everything
'Cause He is everything

From the autumn leaves
That will ride the breeze
To the faith it takes
To pray and see

From the painted sky
To my plank filled eye
He's God of all
He is everything, whoa

I'm giving my life to the only One
Who makes the moon reflect the sun
Every starry night
That was His design

I'm giving my life to the only Son
Who was and is and yet to come
Let the praises ring
'Cause He is everything
Everything

Hallelujah, hallelujah
I believe, oh, oh
Hallelujah, hallelujah
I believe

I'm giving my life to the only One
Who makes the moon reflect the sun
On that starry night
He changed my life

I'm giving it all to the only Son
Who gave me hope when I had none
So let the praises ring

I'm giving my life to the only One
Who makes the moon reflect the sun
Every starry night
It was His design

I'm giving my life to the only Son
Who was and is and yet to come
Every angel sings
That He is heavenly

So let the praises ring
'Cause He is everything

I really really like this song. From the moment I heard it during the Night of Worship I literally fell in love with it. Like I got home from church went straight to my computer and looked it up and downloaded it. This song is my new favorite song.

2. For Your Name by Hillsong
Lyrics:
We got a new life
In the light of Your love
Called by name to the Saviour of all
We got a new song
Generations will sing
Oh-oh Oh!

We got a new hope
All because of the cross
Saved by the grace you have given to us
We got a new song
All the nations will sing
Oh-oh Oh!
Oh-oh!

For Your name
Shout in all the Earth
Great above our lives
Light of our salvation
Oh!

For Your glory
We will give all we are
All our lives for the love of Your son
We got a new song
Now that we are redeemed
Oh-oh Oh!
Oh-oh!

For Your name
Shout in all the Earth
Great above our lives
Light of our salvation

Nations rise
Sing of all You are
Holy is Your name
Lifted high forever

And our hope is in
The Saviours love
You gave it all

Let all Earth sing
To Christ our King
Be lifted up

And our hope is in
The Saviours love
You gave it all

Let all Earth sing
To Christ our King
Be lifted up

For Your name
Shout in all the Earth
Great above our lives
Light of our salvation

Nations rise
Sing of all You are
Holy is Your name
Lifted high forever

For Your name
Shout in all the Earth
Great above our lives
Light of our salvation

Nations rise
Sing of all You are
Holy is Your name
Lifted high forever

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/for-your-name-lyrics-hillsong.html ]

So at the Night of Worship we sang this not once but twice, the first and last song. We had so much fun with song. Its fun to sing especially at church. And I like songs that have a faster tempo. So this fits right in. :). This is my new second favorite song. 


3. Our God by Chris Tomlin
Lyrics:
Water You turned into wine
Open the eyes of the blind
There's no one like You
None like You
Into the darkness You shining
Out of the ashes we rise
There's no one like You
None like You

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

Into the darkness you shining
Out of the ashes we Rise
There's no One like You
None like You.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

BRIDGE
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
What can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

Chris Tomlin Our God (Is Greater) lyrics found on http://www.lyricsty.com/chris-tomlin-our-god-is-greater-lyrics.html

This was the first song they played at church that I actually knew before hand. Lol. It made me really happy because for once i didnt have to fully pay attention to the lyrics on the screen so i wouldnt mess up. XD. I guess listening to the christian music channels more has been paying off. :)

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Weekly Bible Reading [2]

Sundays Reading:
Psalm 65-66 + passages from sermon at church

Mondays Reading:
Psalm 67-77, 1 Corinthians 7

Fave Verse:
Psalm 77:13 - Your ways, god, are holy. What god is as great as our god.

Tuesdays Reading:
Psalm 78-89, Genesis 11-12

Fave Verses:
Psalm 86:7 - When I am in distress, I call to you, because you answer me
Psalm 89:1 - I will sing of the LORD's great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations.

Wednesdays Reading:
Matthew 1-8

Fave Verse:
Matthew 6:14-15 - For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Thursdays Reading:
Luke 1-5, Psalm 90-93

Fave Verse:
Psalm 91:2 - I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust."

Fridays Reading:
Matthew 9-11, Psalm 94-100

Fave Verses:
Matthew 11:28 - Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Psalm 100:5 - For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.
Psalm 99:3 - Let them praise your great and awesome name - he is holy.
Psalm 94:22 - But the LORD has become my fortress, and my God the rock in whom I take refuge.

Saturdays Reading:
Matthew 12-13, for now.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Weekly Music Discovery [2]

1. Rolling In The Deep by Adele
Lyrics:
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare.

See how I'll leave, with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do.
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

The scars of your love, remind me of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it
To the beat

Baby I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there as mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love, remind you of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it
To the beat

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it
With a beating

Throw your soul threw every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

We could have had it all
We could have had it all
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it,
You played it,
You played it
You played it to the beat

Adele Rolling In The Deep lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/adelele-rolling-in-the-deep-lyrics.html

This song, idk what it is with this song but it makes me wanna get up and not be depressive all the time. It makes me wanna do something, but in someways it kinda makes me angry too, like its bringing out all the anger trapped inside me. 

2. Indescribable by Chris Tomlin
Lyrics: 
From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

I heard this song during worship at church and I fell in love with it. That's about it.

3. Someone Else Calling You Baby by Luke Bryan
Lyrics:
I saw a truck backin’ out of your drive
You were sitting in the passenger side
Messin’ with the radio, you had your sun glasses on.
I pulled over cause I couldn’t believe
Two weeks ago that was you and me
Riding down these old back roads, singing our songs
Now everybody round our town's been whisperin’
A tear in your eye says I should have been listenin’

Baby is someone else calling you baby
It’s driving me crazy
This bein in the dark
Goodbye ain't never easy
So break it to me hard
If you’re over my love girl
Lay it on my heart
Don’t try to save me
Is someone else calling you baby?

You wanted time and you wanted your space
So I backed off, did whatever it takes
Never really thought you were that ready for moving along
Now I ain’t leaving till I hear you say what’s going on
It’ll be what it will be, its either him or me
Give me the word and girl I’m gone

Baby is someone else calling you baby
It’s driving me crazy
This bein in the dark
Goodbye ain't never easy
So break it to me hard
If you’re over my love girl
Lay it on my heart
Don’t try to save me
Is someone else calling you baby?

No Goodbye ain't never easy
So break it to me hard
If you’re over my love girl
Lay it on my heart
Don’t try to save me
Is someone else calling you baby?
No, don’t try to save me
Is someone else calling you baby?
Is someone else calling you baby?

I love this song to death. I grew up listening to country so its natural for me to like most country music. This song makes me think of my ex and how it would kill me if he dated someone else. *Sigh*

4. The Drug In Me Is You by Falling In Reverse
Lyrics:
I heard a knock upon my door the other day
I opened it to find death staring in my face
the feel of mortal stalking still reverberates
everywhere I go I drag this coffin just in case

My bodies tremblin' sends shivers down my spine
adrenaline kicks and shifts into overdrive,
your secrets keep you sick your lies keep you alive
snake eyes every single time you roll with crooked dice
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
the kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
running from my past i'm praying feet don't fail me now!

I've lost my god damn mind,
it happens all the time,
I cant believe I'm actually
meant to be here,
trying to consume,
the drug in me is you
and I'm so high on misery
cant you see!

I got these questions always running through my head
so many things that I would like to understand
if we are born to die and we all die to live
then whats the point of living life if it just contradicts?
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
the kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
running from my past i'm praying feet don't fail me now!

I've lost my god damn mind
it happens all the time
I cant believe I'm actually
meant to be here
trying to consume,
the drug in me is you
and I'm so high on misery
cant you see!

I've lost
myself
you tried to reach me but you just cant help me
so long
goodbye
you tried to save me it wont work this time!

cause now

I've lost my fucking mind
and there's no fucking time
I can't believe I'm actually
meant to be here
trying to consume,
the drug in me is you
and I'm so high on misery
can't you see?

I actually just found this song today. The lead singer is RONNIE!! The singer that escape the fate dropped. Hes back with a new band. After listening to this song I think Falling In Reverse is pretty good. I really like this song.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Weekly Bible Reading

I've decided to blog weekly what I read daily in the bible, whether its just what I read, my favorite verses from that reading or to talk about it also. My fave verses are the verses that really jump out at me while I'm reading. And everybody, keep in mind I'm reading the New International Version (NIV) so what I post comes from that version.

I'm currently reading the book of Psalm, but that doesn't mean that's all I'm gonna read from.

Mondays Reading (07/11/2011):
Psalm 28-34

Favorite verse from reading:
Psalm 34:18 - The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Tuesdays Reading (07/12/2011):
Psalm 35-41

Favorite verse from reading:
Psalm 37:39 - The salvation of the righteous comes from the LORD; he is their stronghold in time of trouble.

Wednesdays Reading (07/13/2011):
Psalm 42-49

Favorite verse from reading:
Psalm 47:2 - For the LORD most high is awesome, the great king over all the earth.

Thursdays Reading (07/14/2011):
Genesis 1-10

I didn't really have a favorite verse. I actually read this because I was reading a book that had a reference to Adam and I had to reread all the Adam and Eve stuff just to make 100% sure that what I was reading wasn't true in the book. What the book said though just caught me off guard because it wasn't the first book I've read that said that, so this time I made sure to check my bible. I also found though that what both these series of books are revolved around (the Nephilim), were talked about in the bible. And in all honesty I never knew that. It made me think about all the biblical references there are in the books I read that I never even realized were there.

Fridays Reading (07/15/2011):
Psalm 50

I'll be perfectly honest. I got home late and I was tired but I did want to read something out of the bible. Which is my goal. To always read something no matter how long or short it is.

Saturdays Reading (0716/2011):
Psalm 51-65

Favorite Verses from reading:
Psalm 62:5 - Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.
Psalm 63:3 - Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.

Tattoos I Want

I want these on my right and left arms. I love them. They are so pretty. 

I want this on my back. I love how this looks. 

This is one of my favorite verses from the bible. I'm not completely sure where I want it. I'm thinking maybe on my back also.

I really like how beautiful this is, with the heart and the cross and the words. I'm thinking about maybe getting this on my leg. I don't know for sure yet though.



Monday, July 11, 2011

Weekly Music Discovery

1. You Are More by Tenth Avenue North
Lyrics:
There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she's rehearsed all the lines
And so she'll try to do better
But then she's too weak to try

But don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You've been remade
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
You've been remade.

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/you-are-more-lyrics-tenth-avenue-north.html ]

I recently have been getting into more christian bands since I decided to change and I fell in love with this song the moment I heard it. In many ways it relates to my life and I think that's part of the reason I like this song. But ya... I really like this song. Its one of my new favs. :)


 2. Tonight Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae
 Lyrics:
It’s been a really really messed up week
Seven days of torture, seven days of bitter
And my girlfriend went and cheated on me
She’s a California dime but it’s time for me to quit her

La la la, whatever
la la la, it doesn’t matter
la la la, oh well, la la la

We’re going at it tonight tonight
There’s a party on the rooftop top of the world
Tonight tonight and were dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign
I don’t know if I’ll make it but watch how good I’ll fake it
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight

I woke up with a strange tattoo
Not sure how I got it, not a dollar in my pocket
And it kinda looks just like you
Mixed with Zach Galifianakis

La la la, whatever
la la la, it doesn’t matter
la la la, oh well, la la la

We’re going at it tonight tonight
There’s a party on the rooftop top of the world
Tonight tonight and were dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign
I don’t know if I’ll make it but watch how good I’ll fake it
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight

You got me singing like
Woah, come on, ohh, it doesn’t matter, woah, everybody now, ohh

Just don’t stop let’s keep the beat pumpin’
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
It’s my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

Just don’t stop let’s keep the beat pumpin’
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
It’s my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

Its you and me and were runnin this town
And its me and you and were shakin the ground
And ain’t nobody gonna tell us to go cause this is our show

Everybody
Woah, come on, ohh, all you animals
Woah, let me hear you now, ohh

Tonight tonight there’s a party on the rooftop top of the world
Tonight tonight and were dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign
I don’t know if I’ll make it but watch how good I’ll fake it
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight
Yeah its all right, all right, tonight, tonight

Just singing like
Woah, come on, ohh, all you party people
Woah, all you singletons, ohh, even the white kids

Just don’t stop lets keep the beat pumpin’
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
Its my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

Just don’t stop lets keep the beat pumpin’
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
Its my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

Hot Chelle Rae Tonight, Tonight lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/hot-chelle-rae-tonight-tonight-lyrics.html

I dont know why but I really like this song. I think its just the fact that its got a fun beat and it really bring up my mood from my current sad state. I really like Hot Chelle Rae though. :)

3. Light Up The Sky by The Afters 
Lyrics:
When I'm feeling all alone
With so far to go
The signs that know we're on this road
Are guiding me home
When the night is closing in
Is falling on my skin
Oh God, will you come close

You light, light, light up the sky
You light up the sky to show me that you are with me
And I, I, I can't deny
No I can't deny that you and right here with me
You've opened my eyes
So I can see you all around me
You light, light, light up the sky
You light up the sky to show me that you are with me

When stars are hiding in the clouds
I don't feel them shining
When I can't see beyond my doubt
The silver lining
When I've almost reached the end
Like a flood you're rushing in
Your love is rushing in (your love is rushing in)

You light, light, light up the sky
You light up the sky to show me that you are with me
And I, I, I can't deny
No I can't deny that you and right here with me
You've opened my eyes
So I can see you all around me
You light, light, light up the sky
You light up the sky to show me that you are with me

So I'll run straight to your arms
You're the bright and morning sun
To show your love there's nothing you won't do (nothing you won't do)

You light, light, light up the sky
You light up the sky to show me that you are with me
And I, I, I can't deny
No I can't deny that you and right here with me
You've opened my eyes
So I can see you all around me
You light, light, light up the sky
You light up the sky to show me that you are with me

(Oooh, oh , oh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh
That you are with me
Oooh, oh , oh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh
That you are with me
Oooh, oh , oh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh)

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/light-up-the-sky-lyrics-afters.html ]

 Another christian band. I dont really have alot to say about this one besides the fact that I like this song. And its been stuck in my head for almost a week. 

4. Bleed by Hot Chelle Rae 
Lyrics: 
I feel like Im drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
Im frozen with this fear that you may disappear
Before Ive given you the truth

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I cant say
Im dying here (Im dying here)
Cause I cant say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

Ive always dreamed about this moment
And now its here and Ive turned to stone
I stand here petrified
As I look in your eyes
My head is ready to explode

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I cant say
Im dying here
Cause I cant say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

And its all here in black and white and red
For all the times those words were never said

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I cant say
Im dying here
Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you
I bleed my heart out just for you

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/bleed-lyrics-hot-chelle-rae.html ]

I love this song to death. Its exactly how I feel right now. This is the only song I know of that the song and the video fits perfectly to everything I'm feeling. I wish my heart would stop getting broken! :.(

The notes in the video are:
You drove a stake through my heart. Why?
Take the risk!
My life is shattered without you
I wish you werent so far away
I love you forever.
I need you back. I miss you.
My life wouldnt be my life without you.
NEVER leave me.
I know this could work...
What happened to us? We used to be so perfect together. I love you so much. I miss you everyday.
I miss your friendship
Without you I barely exist.
You have my heart.

 I cry my eyes out watching this video because all I can think about is my ex. We used to be so perfect together. He has my heart. I do wish he wasnt so far away. My life is shattered without him... I barely exist now. My life wouldnt be my life without him. He changed my life. He has my heart. He always will. I love you so much and I miss you everyday like crazy. I need you back. I'm always gonna need you in my life. I know this could work... I love you forever. I'm sorry for everything I said to you, everything that hurt you, for pushing you away and making you angry with me. I never meant to do any of that. Your the love of my life and the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you. I cant stand my life without you. It hurts too much not being with you and it would kill me to see you with someone else. I would give anything for another chance with you...I love you and I miss you so much... :.( ♥ ♥

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

My Change

Just recently I've decided to change. During the past 4 years I've been slowly drifting away from god and my religion. So many things happened that just pushed religion out of my mind. I was in and out of depression, almost always unhappy and always getting hurt by people. I felt like no matter what I did or how much I prayed my prayers were never being answered. I felt like that for a while until recently. When I started dating the guy I'm currently with. He's a christian also. When we started dating he tried to get me to go to church with him but I wouldn't. But I was slowly opening up to the idea of letting god back into my life and believing again. So I went out and bought a new bible and have been reading it close to every night since I got it. Its been a couple weeks since I bought my bible and just last Sunday I decided to go back to church. Now, I'm not going with my bf yet, because his church is on the other side of town from me and I have limited gas money but I went back to the church I personally have belonged to for 7 years.

Since I decided to come back to god and be a christian again I've become a lot happier. I feel like even though bad things are still happening to me like my prayers aren't being ignored and are slowly being answered one at a time, and I feel like I don't have to hide behind the person I made myself out to be in public anymore. I feel like I can actually be myself without being judged and I can have my religion and not be made fun of or laughed at by the people I know because of it. Since I started this change things slowly have seemed to be getting better.
 

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